"The Lord has done great things for us and we are filled with joy." Psalm 126:3

Friday, May 27, 2011

Keller Has Arrived!

Hey All!

I can't go into too much detail here because I am using my phone to post this and it is 2:30 in the morning :), but just wanted to let you know that Keller Kathleen Scholen arrived yesterday at 4:37pm weighing 6 lbs 14.2oz and measuring 19 inches. We are so grateful and totally in love!

Monday, May 23, 2011

Tick Tock, Tick Tock...

I read today that 80% of babies come between 10 days before and 10 days after their due date.  I am 11 days from my due date and am so ready to have this baby.  We have a lot of reasons we would like Keller to come now: 1) Our doula is moving to Florida on June 1st, so we will need to use her backup after she is gone.  2)  It would be nice to have her before Memorial Day weekend to have the extra day off for Jeff and 3)  My parents are going up to Cincinnati, OH for my niece's high school graduation on Monday the 30th (if I am not in labor) and it would take them 7 1/2 hours to get back to Atlanta if I go into labor while they are up there.  Come on out, Baby Keller!!

I am experiencing more Braxton Hicks contractions this week.  I seriously thought I was going into labor on Friday while we were at the Costco, the contractions were so intense and frequent.  But, as soon as I sat down, they went away.  Thursday, I went to my midwife appointment and had my first NST.  Keller was a straight-A student : )  I also got checked and was 100% effaced and at least 2cm dilated.  She couldn't get to the cervix easily because it seems that Keller's head has pushed my cervix posterior a tad.  So, now I am doing pelvic tilts to try to straighten it out so that her head is directly on the cervix again, which helps to progress me.   I know that I could be 2cm dilated and still be weeks away from labor, but it helps to know what is going on with my body and to know that these new pelvic pressures and contractions are doing SOMETHING.  : )

My 38 week belly.


Can't wait to start hearing about all of our new babies!
Tracey

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Maternity Pictures

First of all, thanks for the comments on my last blog.  I loved the article shared by Britney and had already had the thought that Keller will be my own "flesh and blood", even if she is not mine genetically.  It was nice to have an article to back it up!  But, the feelings of loss that I am experiencing have more to do with the fact that it would be so exciting for me to be waiting to meet a little girl that was created out of my husband's and my love for each other.  I would so enjoy seeing a little human being that is part of me and part of my husband mixed together.  It just seems so miraculous to me!  It does not at all dim the absolute JOY that I feel for this child though.  It is just a feeling I need to process.  I guess I was just a bit surprised by the feeling since I thought I grieved this loss long ago and put it behind me.  But, like I said, I think that being pregnant just brought the feeling to the surface again.  I know it is absolutely normal and just something I need to process and let go of once again.  Believing and trusting in an absolute sovereign God, whom I know loves me and desires my best makes the loss much easier and I am THRILLED and so very grateful for this gift that He has allowed me to carry.  Can't wait to meet my sweet Keller!

I am 36 weeks now and I think that Keller has officially dropped.  Sometimes it can feel like she is grinding her sweet little head into my pelvis.  It produces all sorts of new feelings and discomforts, but grateful for the progress!  Lightening, as it is called, is supposed to happen 2-4 weeks before labor.  I hope it is closer to 2 than 4. : )

I just got my maternity pictures back from when I had just turned 33 weeks pregnant.  Here are a few of them.  I kind of wish I had waited until now to have them taken as I have a bigger baby bump at this point.  I definitely measure small.  Grateful that Keller is measuring right on track!


By far, my favorite picture.  Sadie loves to give her "scary" face!


I laugh at this picture.  It is probably my favorite of me and hubs,
but I don't think I even look pregnant!
 


LOVE this picture of Sadie.  And it shows my bump!






Sadie loves to kiss baby Keller : )

Sunday, May 1, 2011

35 Week Update

I don't know how time goes by so fast.  I just realized that I haven't updated in 6 weeks now!  Crazy.  So, here are the highlights....

Sadie's Birthparents... pled guilty a few weeks ago to the adoption fraud charges.  However, the plea was a conditional plea that will be appealed to see if, under KY law, they are really guilty.  KY doesn't have the best adoption fraud laws.  We will be setting a precedent if they are found guilty by the Court of Appeals.  You can read the article about our story here.  We made it to the front cover of the Sunday Metro section in the Atlanta Journal and Constitution a couple of weeks back.  Grateful for the coverage as we would like for the adoption community to rally around getting better laws!

Our Florida Vacation... we decided to go ahead and go on our family vacation this past week and just got back last night.  My midwife thought it would be a great distraction for me to get away and didn't think I was in danger of going into any pre-term labor, so I went with her advice and went!  It was fabulous!  My entire family including parents, two brothers and their families were there.  Lots of help and playmates for Sadie, which was a huge break in and of itself!  Each day consisted of being in the pool and on the lounge chair.  And honestly, being in the pool is my happy place right now.  I feel totally weightless and every ache and pain seems to disappear in the pool.  Lovely!  I will have to say that the ride coming home yesterday was torture though.  We took the trip in 2 days going down, but came the whole way back yesterday and I am paying for it today.  My back is really bothering me, which takes me to the next point.

New Pains... my back has definitely started hurting more over the past couple of weeks.  Not everyday, but if I overdo it one day, I pay for it the next.  And it definitely seems that I can't do quite as much around the house without my legs, feet, and back hurting.  I went and got a prenatal massage the week before we went on vacation.  Pure. Heaven. People!  The therapist has a table for pregnant women where a hole is cut out for your belly.  An adjustable net supports the belly so that your back isn't distended.   My midwife recommended this place and they only charge $85 for 1 1/2 hours!  No tip!  I am going again this Saturday.  I also started going to a chiropractor out of the same office.  She has a special technique for pregnant women that is easier on the body.  I hadn't been to a chiropractor in probably 15 or so years.  I was super sore the next day, but definitely felt better after that.  I go again tomorrow.

Baby Keller... still loves to move all over the place.  I am measuring small, but she is measuring right on track.  Because I am so long-waisted, it seems that still has lots of room to do flips.  She was literally changing from head down to breech a couple of times a day.  I could feel the somersault in my belly.  Not too comfortable!  One morning I went to see my midwife and she was head-down and a couple of hours later went to an ultrasound and she was breech.  It has been a little nuts.  Last week, Keller was head-down and I don't think she has flipped at all while I was on vacation.  Hopefully, she will stay that way!

Another fun thing with Keller is finally experiencing hiccups!  She gets them a couple of times a day.  In fact, she is hiccuping as I type this post!

Honesty... One thing that has kinda surprised me is that this pregnancy has surfaced some new emotions of loss that this child is not mine biologically.  I think being pregnant makes me "feel" like this child should be mine biologically and so it is sad to me to snap back into reality and realize that it isn't.  Please don't misunderstand me - I am SO thrilled to be able to carry my adopted child!  It is just so much different than adopting domestically.  When you adopt domestically from another woman who just gave birth to your child, there is no room to even remotely imagine the child as being your's biologically.  I'd be curious to know if anyone else has had these feelings.

Preparing... for labor and delivery.  I still need to pack my bags, practice a bunch of relaxation techniques, and buy a few things.  Plus, Keller's room still needs to be completely wrapped up.  Our cats had decided to use that room as a litter box over the past year and so we had to have the carpet removed to get new padding.  My husband cleaned and cleaned and cleaned the carpet, but after putting the carpet back in, it still isn't smelling perfect.  ugh!  So, he is going to work on it a little more this week and then we need to put all of the furniture back and get things organized!  She will be here soon!

Hope you all are doing well.  Can't wait to start meeting our babies!
Tracey